mood: bleghhh
song: hemorrhage - fuel

c'est vingt avril deux mille huit

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alone

complete untimely destruction

surrounded by broken links

every corner turned,

door after door shut and

sealed in the web of lies

woven together,

creating human life

reveal one corruption

cripple all connections

 

live in the hell

growing in the
background

see a friendly touch

watch it crumble to
dust,

where an angel of love

is delusioned by lust

 

an introverted
inspection

with every known
correction

relinquishing notes
of dread

still won't release
the dead

 

a flower
relates,

one by
one, petals fallen

faded,
trade them again

for the
next beginning

reached
at this one's end

 

alone

 

seek
and gather what's needed

simply
staring into space ahead

seconds
fall worthwhile

only
to pass time,

closing
in on the goal

of
lifetimes lived in seconds split

once
again realization hits

every
soul exiled to earth

searching
to be found...

...alone

mood: sick of all the shit in life

song: the wreckoning - pink

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ambitious whim

barely formed

in a whisper

to the universe

 

audibly uncontainable

desperately unexplainable

 

riding on the wrath of the wind

straight through the sky

this one wish sailing on a star

crash landing, impaling the moon

 

starlit drops of life lunge forward

pulled by gravity, inescapable

towards a deceptive temptation

 

unforeseen surprise

this whisper of demise

black magic in one word

a vanishing dimension

 

eyes shut tight

to the chaos amiss

blink, blink, blink

there’s no place like home

there’s no place like home

 

there’s no one home....

 

there is no home....

 

complete absence of light

now everyone is home

Mood: drained
Song: innocence – avril lavigne
Ces’t le samedi vingt-deux mars deux mille huit

Tap, twirl, one two

Spin, down, up, around

Wave, robot, beat beat

Linguistics, c, a, b, d, d,

Silk dress, smooth as ice

Whoosh, flowing, three four

Tap, twirl, sing along

Tell me now, your favorite song…

 
(seriously peeps, what’s your favorite tunes??)

mood: apathetic

song: i dont wanna fall in love - good charlotte

C'est le jeudi  vingt mars deux mille huit

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the daughter of chaos

 

The scent of blood etched in the lines of her palms

The curse of destruction embedded in her fingertips

 

“This, too, shall Pass”

 

the contact of hand to skin

 

slowly her limbs disappear, sinking into flesh

eagerly searching for a pulse, quite a disappointment

 

love or life, which is greater?

Not that it mattered to her

Both shriveled away from her like
the victims of her touch

 

“You know not the Hour”

 

Questions for the Universe, always in flux

Where is the End of Time?

She cannot hold on, unable to wait any longer

 

One caress of her nail, the glass is shattered

Step lightly, one, two, three,

Faintly grazed, oh no, down on the floor

Lifelessly drenched in a pool
of death

 

“It’s
never too Late”

 

Traveling on from the latest mistake

One, two, three, one, two, three

Dead halt, one, two, three

 

A puzzling notion nags her fingers

Spin, twirl, unraveling her world

No gap, but yet life sustained

Curious, she ventured further

 

A tighter grip, digging in
her fingertips

But life held steady,
somehow unabated

Was this the one she long awaited?

 

“Let there be Light”

 

A sneaky endeavor, to take the
breath

from the daughter of chaos,

an adamant danger, of ignorant bliss

now inanimate and unaware of the complications in her presence

how all shied permanently from her company

unbeknownst of the rumored curse dispelled

her loss of life saved her soul from eternal Hell

 

“Ask and You Shall Receive”

Dreams Unworthy

 

Forgive me if I cannot smile

Bleeding soul, for you're on trial

How much damage will you do?

Before I meet the worst of you?

 

Forgive me if I leave a trace

Of painful thoughts upon your face

Decaying soul, for you're to blame

You left my hopes in ashen flame

 

Forgive me if a tear escapes

If one too many cuts engraved

Cannot heal my fleeting faith

Voided soul, for now you're chained

quote of the day: "poeple who don't sleep, bake pies"

c'est le jeudi vingt-neuf juin deux mille six

mood:   unresponsive

Anybody under the age of 11 should not read this, and if you do, you should not repost this.

Just because you were born in '95 doesn't mean you're a 90's kid.

It's not like you could remember the original Simpsons. I am sorry but three conscious years of the nineties just wont cut it.

You're a 90's kid if:

You've ever ended a sentence with the word "SIKE!"

You can sing the rap to "The Fresh Prince Of Bel Air"

You remember when Kurt Cobain, Tupac, River Phoenix, and Selena died.

You know that "WOAH" comes from Joey from "Blossom" and that "How Rude!" comes from Stephanie from "Full House"

You remember when it was actually worth getting up early
on a Saturday to watch cartoons.

You remember that abercrombie and fitch wasnt that craved

You got super excited when it was Oregon Trail day in computer class at school.

You remember reading "Goosebumps"

You know the profound meaning of "Wax on, wax off"

You have pondered why Smurfette was the only female smurf.

You took plastic cartoon lunch boxes to school.

you danced to "wannabe" by the Spice Girls, Females: had a new motto, Males: got a whole lot gay-er. (so tell me what you want, what you really really want.)

You remember the craze then the banning of slap bracelets and slam books.

You still get the urge to say "NOT" after (almost) every sentence...Not...

Where in the world is Carmen San Diego? was both a game and a TV game show.

Captain Planet.

You knew that Kimberly, the pink ranger, and Tommy, the red* Ranger were meant to be together.

To the last sentence you said.....hey...Tommy was the green* ranger!!!!

*later to be white

*then red

*then more things and he is currently the black ranger

When playing power rangers with friends you fought over who got to be who............and still all ended up being tommy.

You remember when super nintendo's became popular.

You remember watching Home Alone 1 and 2........and tried to pull the pranks on "intruders"

"I've fallen and I can't get up"

You remember going to the skating rink before there were inline skates

Two words... Trapper Keeper.

You ever got injured on a Slip 'n' Slide

You wore socks over leggings scrunched down

****"Miss Mary Mack, Mack, Mack, all dressed in black, black, black, with silver buttons, buttons, buttons, all down her back, back, back" SHE ASKED HER MOTHER MOTHER MOTHER FOR FIFTY CENTS CENTS CENTS TO SEE THE ELEPHANTS PHANTS PHANTS JUMP OVER THE FENCE THE FENCE THE FENCE
he jumped so high high high he touched the sky sky sky and he didnt come back back back til the forth of july ly ly he jumped so low ow ow he stubbed his toe toe toe and thats the end end end of the elephants show show show****


You remember boom boxes vs. cd players

You remember New Kids on The Block when they were cool

You knew all the characters names and their life stories on "Saved By The Bell"

You played and or collected "Pogs"

You had at least one Tamagotchi, GigaPet or Nano and brought it everywhere

You watched the original Care Bears, My Little Pony, and Ninja Turtles

You played marbles at recess

When wearing your pants over your belly button was cool!

NANCY DREW AND THE HARDY BOYS WERE THE BEST MYSTERY BOOKS

When you ate otterpops even when it was 40 degrees outside

Yikes pencils and erasers were the stuff!

All your school supplies were "Lisa Frank" brand.(pencils.notebooks.binders.etc.)

You remember when the new Beanie Babies were always sold out.

You used to wear those stick on earings, not only on your ears, but at the corners of your eyes.

You remember a time before the WB.

You've gotten creeped out by "Are You Afraid of the Dark?"

You know the Macarena by heart.

"Talk to the hand" ... enough said

You thought Brain woud finally take over the world

You always said, "Then why don't you marry it!"

You remember when everyone went slinky crazy.

You remember when razor scooters were cool.

when we were younger:

Before the MySpace frenzy.

Before the Internet & text messaging.

Before Sidekicks & iPods.

Before MIKE JONES

Before PlayStation2 or X-BOX.

WHEN LIGHT UP SNEAKERS WERE KOOL

When you rented VHS tapes, not DVDs.

When gas was $0.95 a gallon & Caller ID was a new thing.

When we recorded stuff on VCRs & paid $3.50 for a movie.

When we called the radio station to request songs to hear off our walkmans.

When 2Pac and Biggie were alive.

When the Chicago Bulls were the best team ever.


bill-nye the science guy.

MR RODGERS!!!!

gulah gulah island

gumby

lamb chop

original barney


When Toys R Us overuled the mall.


act like you didn't watch afro-king BOB ROSS paint trees on T.V.



DID I DO THAAAAAAAAAT???

smud and yak back. skip it and bop it.


Before we realized all this would eventually disappear

Who would have thought you'd miss the 90's so much!!!!!


Your a 90's kid when you read this and smiled and laughed at least 5 of these.

today at approximately 10:53 am, it happened.

 an entire population was wiped out in a flash flood with only a small silver platform as the only available form of dry ground. Little by little the trapped and drowned were hauled up by the silver platform several times until all victims were removed from the scene, only to meet a much deeper and darker fate.

 They were never seen again.

 

The alleged rescuer devouered her prey in its entirety after awakening and discovering the much discomforting symptoms of hunger. After finishing of her bowl of cereal, she then left for adventures unknown and targets unnamed in the world of chicken.

 

Crystal window of my eyes,

Mysterious, shadowed, illusioned

Their gaze beheld a thousand lies,

Dark, shattered, pieces scattered,

 

What should doubt

the wondrous crowd,

physically undenied,

when chains of fate

should concecrate

one soul, undefiled

 

unrelenting entities,

cease not punishing

those who arent their own

 

never to hide,

the unrefined

left to survive

. . .

alone

me 'n' my bike went all around belleville today heh heh

we stopped at a bench and read for awhile, that was pretty relaxing

it gave me a pretty cut on my right ankle...

tomorrow i gotta work *sighs* again and then ....

something to commemorate my graduation

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a feather floating in the graveyard,

a soul forlorn among the lost,

when all of life is all but charred,

it dissappears in motes of dust

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er happy belated pi day hahah!! so i haven't publically updated in forever and i apologize mainly its been several private rants about this n that but w/e

reminds me that in 3rd hr today i was wearing a *black* skirt of appropriate length that had subtle flowery designs that blended in quite well, a bright *orange* plain shirt and a *blue * denim jean jacket over it, all of acceptible length, nothing questionable was being exposed skinwise

hee hee hee they all got mad at me cus they're like all "how'd u get away with wearing that?!" im like "nobody said anything so i dont care" then they're like all picking on the different stuff that i could get caught for, now mind you the teacher isnt in the room yet, and ben (great guy ben is) says "well if you keep drawing attention to it, somebody will notice. jerks!" lol plus i inputed my dislike for doing laundry a thousand times a week just so my shirts will have a collar and the right color. they're like all "no need to get defensive"

ahhaha i think they're jealous. its nice being invisible

so in psych we learned today about how when a story is retold over and over again its like playing telephone. things get added and details are edited out because human brains naturally want to fill in missing gaps and make everything in the story come together cohesively

the above story would be an example of this since i couldnt remember all of the details, i just summarized and told the "meat and potatoes" of the story as my teacher put it but i promise the general idea is there and i didnt twist anything out of proportion or exaggerate ....(too much) ^.<