the shadows of my mind
attempt to confuse
a clouded, shifting maze
that will not let me thru
.
where many strong convictions
had stood their ground and spoken
vacated a frozen, empty void
where many absences grow cold.
.
i traipse along in apathy
tangled in these paralyzing layers
of quick-sand syncronization,
hiding deeper in my thoughts
no longer quite believing
that existence exists.
.
senses shutting down
no longer registering
surroundings remorphing.
everything is numb
i am barely there . . .
.
its a complicated illusion,
a holographic trick-of-light
not quite comprehendig
how so many different angles
are as every bit transparent
as the mirror that holds my reflection.
.
i fear i've been misplaced
in a place that cannot be found
where anything is possible
but nothing hapens at all.
everything is blurred
wish i could care . . .

could you lose yourself in me today
knowing that there is no tomorrow?

would you lend your heart to me
knowing the days that follow
will bring you sorrow?

The question of a lifetime
answered in a year. . .

the pain is my assurance:
perhaps i shan't sink too deep?
because irreversibility
is not a possibility.

just beyond the other side
of the door to my heart,
the love of many lifetimes
patiently awaits my return